Two emerging artists, Alpha and Scotty A.P., take the stage for back-to-back live music performances at SYT 2022. Alpha performs ‘Let It Go,’ an original song tracing his mental health journey from losing his mother at 15 through 2020’s racial violence, before Scotty A.P. follows with ‘Grow,’ a track grappling with self-belief, jealousy, and being doubted by others.
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[02:17:10] I got it, let me say it.
[02:17:11] Okay.
[02:17:11] Coming to the stage.
[02:17:13] Okay.
[02:17:13] Up four, alpha.
[02:17:15] Give it up for them, y’all.
[02:17:16] Welcome.
[02:17:26] Hello, everyone.
[02:17:41] Glad.
[02:17:42] Glad.
[02:17:43] glad to be here it’s cool to be a part of this event this is about my second performance live
[02:17:48] so it’s definitely an honor and tyler i appreciate it so thank you very much um this song is going to
[02:17:54] be kind of about my somewhat of an origin of you know my struggles with mental health and of course
[02:18:03] the year that 2020 was we kind of go i kind of go into that so let’s just get into it
[02:18:08] oh all right one more time i told you
[02:18:26] lost mama 15 what else was the world gonna take from me damn shut down couldn’t speak didn’t know
[02:18:32] pain could be this crippling damn and it blep for me getting close to people just to lose him seems
[02:18:38] like a
[02:18:38] more bad dreams to store for me
[02:18:40] Plus I couldn’t sleep, existence torturing
[02:18:42] And that ain’t work to see
[02:18:45] Wanted love but excluded everything
[02:18:47] Found myself in the dark
[02:18:48] Lonely, offered help but it didn’t
[02:18:50] work for me
[02:18:51] Everyone said it’s just
[02:18:54] me as a little kid
[02:18:56] And I was so mad because
[02:18:58] I felt like the therapist
[02:19:00] Hey
[02:19:04] This song is called Let It Go
[02:19:09] I’m trying to release a project
[02:19:11] by the end of the summer
[02:19:12] You can follow me on Alpha Destroys
[02:19:14] Just want to get that in
[02:19:16] Let’s get to it
[02:19:19] Hey, hey
[02:19:20] Hey, hey
[02:19:22] I like to walk around
[02:19:27] This is where my age comes in
[02:19:30] One
[02:19:40] And with the waves
[02:19:44] Let it go
[02:19:47] Oh, oh
[02:19:49] And with the waves
[02:19:53] Let it go
[02:19:55] Oh, oh
[02:19:57] Oh, oh
[02:19:57] And with the waves
[02:20:00] I’m on the waves, let it go
[02:20:09] Yo, yo, look, look
[02:20:14] Lost mom at 15, what else was the world gonna take from me?
[02:20:19] Damn, shut down, couldn’t speak, didn’t know, pick and feed this crippling
[02:20:23] Damn, and it bled from me, getting close to people just to lose them seemed
[02:20:27] Like some more bad drinks and stuff for me, plus I couldn’t sleep, existence tortured me
[02:20:32] And that ain’t working, see, wanted love but excluded everything
[02:20:36] Found myself in the dark, lonely, offered help but it didn’t work for me
[02:20:40] And everyone’s saddest just me as a little kid
[02:20:45] And I was so bad because I felt like the years went on
[02:20:50] One day I had a thaw, on that day I gained more than what I lost
[02:20:53] I obtained my true sense of purpose, gotta find the knowledge with
[02:20:57] Then the laws found out that I could be a man that could stand for the people when they can’t
[02:21:02] Tired of all this, you deserve the underhand, I get you, my brother, I know
[02:21:06] I get you, my sister, I know
[02:21:08] What we gotta do is take back control of our mental and emotional flows
[02:21:13] This is your story, you tell how it goes
[02:21:15] You might not think you capable to do that
[02:21:17] I’ll tell you something not everyone knows
[02:21:19] Wanna be happy and can’t seem to do that
[02:21:22] You believe it, then proceed to let that shit go
[02:21:27] And then hop on that wave, then let it go
[02:21:32] Go, go
[02:21:33] Hop on that wave, then let it go
[02:21:40] Then let it go
[02:21:42] Hop on that wave, then let it go
[02:21:54] Go, go
[02:21:57] For what’s happened recently, I really try to let it go
[02:22:01] But I just can’t, I don’t know
[02:22:04] All this pain inflicted deep within my soul
[02:22:06] Except my brother’s killed, I don’t know
[02:22:08] I saw my sisters killed, I don’t know
[02:22:10] With their hands up, they’re warm, turn to cold
[02:22:12] Hope these cock and pecks get what they’re owed
[02:22:14] Hope these motherfuckers reap what they sow
[02:22:17] Life without fail, I don’t know
[02:22:19] Eternity in hell, I don’t know
[02:22:21] Supposed to stink like, with forgiveness right
[02:22:23] Can’t sleep at night, the wrongs won’t right
[02:22:25] Justice is to work and only fight
[02:22:27] But the worst rotten house got free just tonight
[02:22:30] Hard to think, Christian when the devil win it
[02:22:32] God, please just help us make this right
[02:22:34] God, help us make this right
[02:22:39] Lord, please, Lord, please help us make this right
[02:22:43] Shit, we ain’t right
[02:22:47] Lord, please, Lord, please
[02:22:51] With the things that you said to me
[02:22:53] Know your legacy could never be dealt with me
[02:22:56] God, it’s gone
[02:22:56] God, it’s gone
[02:22:57] God, it’s gone
[02:22:57] God, it’s gone
[02:22:57] God, it’s gone
[02:23:27] God, it’s gone
[02:23:57] Oh, it’s my turn, it’s my turn
[02:23:59] Alright, we rolling, we rocking, we going
[02:24:03] Welcome to the stage, Scotty A.P.
[02:24:15] I’m not gonna lie, I’m a little nervous
[02:24:16] This is my second performance
[02:24:18] I’m gonna be performing a song called Grow
[02:24:22] Hopefully I don’t get a little choked up
[02:24:27] I’m ready whenever you are
[02:24:28] A.P. you’re putting depression on me
[02:24:49] Grow, hang what you seen in me
[02:24:57] I really try my best, they ain’t believe in me
[02:24:59] I’m 12 and deep on this thought, a lucid fantasy
[02:25:01] Got jealousy and envy on my mind, controlling me
[02:25:04] They really got a hold of me, they got a hold of me
[02:25:07] So tell me what you really see, they wanna see the best in me
[02:25:10] Now they don’t wanna see it, now they don’t wanna see it
[02:25:13] Now they don’t wanna see it
[02:25:13] Do you really see the big go, get a go, go figure
[02:25:16] Go countin’ all this money, I’m gettin’ to eight figures
[02:25:19] Can you see the big picture?
[02:25:21] No you can’t, cause they plottin’ on my downfall
[02:25:23] Wouldn’t see me fall hard, never had my back
[02:25:25] Never had it for the long haul
[02:25:27] Watchin’ niggas struggle out the mud when you ball hard
[02:25:29] Never gave a fuck about a nigga, just a lost cause
[02:25:32] Done with all the drama and the problems, be the first star
[02:25:34] Done with all the bullshit, done with all the cool, they ain’t cool shit
[02:25:37] Done with all the niggas on that bullshit
[02:25:39] Done with all the fake balls and niggas I ain’t cool with
[02:25:42] Done with all the talkin’, I’m just tryna make a move quick
[02:25:44] Nigga gotta move quick, why you keep on talkin’ like you know me, you don’t know shit
[02:25:48] Couldn’t keep a secret, you too wild with them blue slips
[02:25:51] Now I got a dick split, now these niggas seein’ that I’m switchin’ on some cool shit
[02:25:54] Done with all the gossip, done with all the nonsense
[02:25:57] Why they keep on lyin’ on my name like I ain’t bout it?
[02:25:59] Why they tryna keep me from the fame like I ain’t shinin’?
[02:26:02] Baby, I’m a diamond, niggas out here boppin’
[02:26:04] Bro, hey, what you seein’ me?
[02:26:08] I really try my best, they ain’t believe in me
[02:26:10] I’m grovin’ deep on the start, I lose the fantasy
[02:26:12] Got jealousy and envy on my mind, controlin’ me
[02:26:15] They really gotta holdin’ me, they gotta holdin’ me
[02:26:17] Now tell me what you really see, they wanna see the best in me
[02:26:21] Now they don’t wanna see it, now they don’t wanna see it, now they don’t wanna see it, no
[02:26:27] Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-oh-oh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
[02:26:29] I guess I still got some time, I think
[02:26:31] Can I run it back, again?
[02:26:33] Is that cool with you guys?
[02:26:34] So I gotta like a little bit more energy
[02:26:36] I’ve got the nerves inside a little bit, so I’m gonna try to speak up this time
[02:26:44] I said, hey, no-o-o-o-oh, ooh
[02:26:50] Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-oh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-oh
[02:26:53] Hey, P applied the pressure on me
[02:26:55] Peace out.
[02:27:25] Outro Music
[02:27:55] Outro Music
[02:28:25] Outro Music