Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbAZeaI8iH8 Starts at: 03:01:03 (jump to 03:01:03)
Dr. Ashley Elliott - Dance Performance to Something Has to Break
[03:01:03] give it up for you [03:01:05] come on coach [03:01:07] hi everybody [03:01:25] did you hear my loud ass [03:01:28] talk around there [03:01:29] of course [03:01:31] she’s with me [03:01:32] have kids we’ll travel [03:01:33] I am Dr. Ashley Ellie [03:01:36] also known as Dr. Vivit [03:01:38] if you ask my mom I’m just Ashley [03:01:39] but I am a clinician [03:01:42] but I also am a person [03:01:44] who’s real [03:01:45] and I have a diagnosis [03:01:48] of anxiety disorder [03:01:49] and major depressive disorder [03:01:50] and I also do a chronic illness [03:01:53] so every time I call him Dr. Calgary [03:01:56] because he’s my supervisor [03:01:58] and I call him Dr. Calgary [03:01:58] and I call him Dr. Calgary [03:01:58] shout out to him [03:01:59] but I can say Tyler [03:02:01] because I’m a doctor too [03:02:02] so every time that [03:02:06] Tyler asks me to come out [03:02:08] I come out not as a clinician [03:02:10] but as a person who understands [03:02:11] what it means to struggle [03:02:12] and what it means to fight [03:02:14] and what it means to survive [03:02:16] and I picked this particular song [03:02:17] because I dance a little bit [03:02:18] oh the errands coming off [03:02:22] the errands coming off [03:02:26] I’m a black woman [03:02:30] I’m going to take my earrings [03:02:31] out of my shoes off when I dance [03:02:32] I picked this particular song [03:02:36] for the message [03:02:37] because it’s okay not to be okay [03:02:39] it’s okay when you try [03:02:41] just to feel like [03:02:42] that’s all I got for y’all [03:02:44] I can really try [03:02:45] so can you see me let me go [03:02:47] I need to hang her real quick [03:02:48] it’s my brother’s birthday [03:02:51] off by a year [03:02:52] I’m like this all the time [03:02:56] so if you want to come to me [03:02:57] for therapy [03:02:57] this is what you get [03:02:58] gotcha [03:03:00] sign me up [03:03:01] sometimes I live my life [03:03:24] like I got sucked into [03:03:26] proof [03:03:26] get caught up [03:03:27] in opinions [03:03:28] I got so much to lose [03:03:30] if I don’t perform well [03:03:32] talk well [03:03:34] give the people what they want [03:03:36] or I’m a catch [03:03:38] how [03:03:38] don’t talk too loud [03:03:48] about your struggles [03:03:49] try to break through [03:03:50] got that tight smile [03:03:52] I wear when I’m trying [03:03:53] not to be rude [03:03:54] because I [03:03:55] I’m a [03:03:56] girl [03:03:57] yellow [03:03:58] give the people what they want [03:04:00] but I’m a catch [03:04:02] how [03:04:02] and I try [03:04:04] but I’m tired [03:04:08] I’m shaking [03:04:11] performance [03:04:14] yeah slowly [03:04:16] but surely [03:04:18] I try [03:04:20] and I’m tired [03:04:24] but surely [03:04:25] I try [03:04:25] and I’m tired [03:04:26] but surely [03:04:26] but surely [03:04:26] I’m grown [03:04:27] but still growing [03:04:29] yeah slowly [03:04:32] but surely [03:04:34] I try [03:04:35] I said it right [03:04:44] and everybody’s happy [03:04:45] but me [03:04:46] I wore it so well [03:04:48] it covered up [03:04:49] my identity [03:04:50] because I pretend so well [03:04:52] but I question as well [03:04:54] tell the people [03:04:55] what they want [03:04:56] tell the people what they want [03:04:56] to hear or get you [03:04:58] tell the people what they want [03:04:59] to hear or get you [03:04:59] tell the people what they want [03:04:59] to hear or get you [03:04:59] tell the people what they want [03:04:59] there’s only [03:05:00] so much [03:05:01] I can take [03:05:03] and I’m still an over-raging [03:05:05] water’s making me free [03:05:07] and I don’t mind [03:05:08] well [03:05:09] guess I find myself [03:05:11] people only want the narrative [03:05:13] that sells [03:05:14] well [03:05:14] and I try [03:05:18] and I’m trying [03:05:22] I’m stepping [03:05:25] performing [03:05:26] yes [03:05:27] slowly [03:05:28] but surely [03:05:30] yeah I try [03:05:32] I’m grown [03:05:39] but still growing [03:05:42] yes [03:05:43] slowly [03:05:44] but surely [03:05:46] I try [03:05:47] performance [03:05:48] can’t buy your love [03:05:50] you can try [03:05:51] but it never will be enough [03:05:56] performance can’t buy your love [03:05:58] you can try [03:06:00] but it never will be enough [03:06:02] performance can’t buy your love [03:06:06] you can try [03:06:08] you can never be enough [03:06:10] you can try [03:06:13] but you’re already lost [03:06:16] try [03:06:20] but I’m tired [03:06:24] I’m tired [03:06:24] I’m tired [03:06:25] I’m tired [03:06:26] Oh, sadly, you’re falling [03:06:29] Yeah, slowly, but surely [03:06:34] I’ll try [03:06:36] And I’ll try [03:06:40] Cause I’ll grow, but still growing [03:06:46] Yeah, slowly, but surely [03:06:50] I’ll try [03:06:56] I’ll try