Aaron Settichrom performs his original spoken-word poem ‘Social Anxiety, a first-person account of navigating social situations while masking anxiety — hiding in corners, faking happiness, and deploying learned social tricks to avoid detection. The poem closes with a hard-won acknowledgment that social anxiety is not an ally, and must be accepted rather than accommodated.

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Transcript

[01:09:43] Thank you.

[01:10:13] And the conversation is inviting, but you have your sketchbook.

[01:10:18] The corner of the room is safe.

[01:10:21] They will forget me.

[01:10:24] Everyone is on their phone.

[01:10:26] My silence isn’t noticed.

[01:10:29] I delight that I can hide.

[01:10:32] My truth is hidden.

[01:10:34] Someone starts talking to me.

[01:10:36] You learn the tricks.

[01:10:38] Do them well.

[01:10:40] And people, people are easy to fool.

[01:10:44] Just be a little off.

[01:10:46] They give you space.

[01:10:49] Your smile lights up, and everyone sees happiness.

[01:10:53] You move into position and hope you will stay.

[01:10:58] Stay no longer than you must.

[01:11:02] I have lived with this, this all my life.

[01:11:07] I have learned the tricks.

[01:11:09] But I must learn to accept social anxiety.

[01:11:13] Social anxiety is not a friend.

[01:11:17] Thank you, and thank you for listening.

[01:11:21] But I must learn to accept social anxiety is not a friend.

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